I actually wrote most of this in November of 2022 – again, I am baffled and frustrated that it still is relevant February 2024 I’m awake.  I got up and meditated, did my morning routine and even read for about 20 minutes.  Then connected with the world by checking email.   That’s the only extent I ever really want to connect with the world. I feel so defeated regularly. I feel like everyone walking around are polar opposites. I fear that at any point, someone is going to decide they don’t like something I say. They will decide I’m a threat…