Like most words, they get tossed around a lot and I absorb them. I never truly understand what they mean. One could argue the people who were saying them, don’t understand either. It was time to do a Google deep dive (without the “helpful” AI summary at the top.) “Once in a Blue Moon.” Depending on which definition you pick, it can actually be a fairly regular and scheduled occurrence. However, the way the phrase has been used, always made it seem to me it was only a few times in a lifetime – some planetary (and magical) alignment. In…
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The way we spin it and why we shouldn’t I love a “suffering that brings redemption” story. Maybe it is the Catholic upbringing. I love nothing more than reading about someone who has gone “through it” (whatever “it” is) and comes out the other side stronger, more loving, more merciful, more forgiving, more them – again whatever that is. Oh and if they are genuinely grateful for the experience and wouldn’t change a thing: Perfect. Tell me more about how to always make pain into something desirable. I’ve been trained really well. Even though I know that pain for redemption…
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Some thoughts I have many faults. Some of them I’m not even aware of or they haven’t happened yet. Other faults stalk me, like that bush near my walkway I had a landscaper pull out 8 years ago. It’s back in full glory and it’s not going anywhere. In a similar style, I have tried to eradicate these long standing “faults”. At least, that’s how these particular personality traits have been presented to me by numerous other people throughout my life. Interestingly enough it is these faults that make me and what I do, who I am and what I’m…
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(when it feels like you can’t for all the reasons) Four years ago, I took a RYT 200 Yoga Teacher Training Course. I have never wanted to be a teacher (of anything, yoga or otherwise). Still, for some reason, I had this feeling that this was what I needed to do with my time (and $$) that summer. So I spent almost every weekend that summer in a yoga studio, taking a comprehensive yoga teacher training course. I have always loved and attempted to practice yoga and started when I was in college. Back then it was VHS. Then I…
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And maybe that’s what it’s supposed to be It seems like whether we want to or not, December reminds us of things – that we wanted or want to do. My forgotten dreams come as I remember earlier holidays and/or while I’m making plans for the holiday into next year. I will pick up some old dreams I had when I was younger and check them out, again and again. Year after year. At the same time, I will also hear that incessant chatter in my brain about bringing back lost dreams and “who were you when you were kid?…
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Maybe it’s time to let some of that go Why do I have to change who and how I am to fit this hypothetical, constantly changing, make-believe culture that changes every second? And changes depending on who I’m talking to? Anyone who creates and then shares takes a huge risk… “Will they understand? Will they get it?” That’s the hope. The fear looms large. I’m not afraid of people not getting “it”. (Whatever this “it” is.) It’s the inevitable pressing of others on me to make the elusive “it” more “understandable”, more “palatable”, less provocative. You know, so it can…
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when swimming in a culture that doesn’t seem to want that at all When things aren’t working (and that feels like ALL.THE.TIME), I find myself looking for systems and procedures that can get any one area of my life under control. It doesn’t have to actually get it under control – just needs to give me a semblance of control. It gives me some form of an understanding (even if it’s false) in a world that I‘ve always found pretty messed up and hypocritical. I tell myself that this semblance of control is needed to keep me from spinning out.…
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Mine. “They are mine”, I tell myself regularly. But are they really? There’s this dream as kid that when you are an adult you’ll get to have ice cream for dinner every night, stay up as late as you want and do the things you want to do. Then you grow up and realize that if you thought there were a lot of rules when you were a kid, adulting adds rules upon rules upon rules. And the tricky part is, unlike when you are a kid and the adults tell you “Don’t do this” or “You can’t do that!”,…
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Maybe… Photo Chris Molloy: https://www.pexels.com/photo/brooklyn-bridge-new-york-944690/ The last in this series, this phrase kept popping up in my mind. It frustrated me when I was a kid. Is this a locality thing? Did kids growing up in California hear “If everyone jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge would you?” Am I in the last generation to have heard this phrase? I am suddenly very concerned about this. This week’s phrase: “If everyone jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge, would you?” Maybe I was the recipient of this line. If I was, I don’t remember. It sounds quaint now. Ridiculous even. Our whole…
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If only… This month is all about WHY you feel so weird and creepy when you see some of these “positive inspirational quotes” on social media or listen to a friend or co-worker quote it while trying to “coach” others through their stuff. This week’s quote: “The worst thing that can happen is a feeling.” I have heard this one A LOT. I’ve been told it. I’ve heard it said to friends and family. I’ve seen it all over. The whole “It’s just your thoughts. You are holding yourself back.” And my response is, “Well, yeah, maybe…” It is true…